I stayed up all night texting

talking about nothing

but I bet he thinks it’s something

wasting time

as insomnia kicks my ass

hating this convo more and more as time past

thinking to myself

how long can this sleeplessness last

his words are jumbled idiocies

incoherent ramblings but something jumped out to me

he wanted to know how was I

HOW

WAS

I………..

Do you know how long it’s been since someone asked that?

My brain so confused it can’t process what to say back

baffled at the question I said, as a person

He replied of course

I said I just had to make certain

crazy right?

the question while simple made me realize

no one cares about the other

I’m still depressed from the death of my mother

do I go there?

is this what he means should I share

does he really wanna know do he really care?

Should I break down my reality is that really fair?

I reply…

I’m fine

Too scared to walk down that road

instead I type lies and emojis 😀😃

while our convo unfolds

laughing symbols replace the numbness

I left unaddressed

this convo a mess

so I end it with a simple text

TTYL 😘