Standing here in disbelief angered hurt

thinking to myself

Angel you know your fucking worth

why allow a man to take your heart and drag it through the dirt

looking in the mirror reflecting

on my reflection

practicing a flawless smile

so the pain in this selfie is undetected

the woman whom I once was is gone

the walls that once incased me are no longer home

empty remnants of a love that was suppose to last

looking into my soul the destruction is bad

LOVE isn’t what’s best for me it drives my mind MAD

how can a woman like I have so much to give

LIVE

without the inability to really be HIS

if NOT loving me is wrong

then I guess he IS

how could love please some but fuck over me

how can folks who don’t deserve that shit

receive it so effortlessly

WHAT could cheaters and liars have that I don’t possess inside me

how could that be

is it even me

I gave that dude my all and not half of me

but that’s never enough

maybe it’s too much

do I suppose to just walk away

and not give a FUCK

or do I stick around to fight another day

to find another way

could my heart be unscathed

could I be open to finding that one that will be my forever and a day

My soul doesn’t care what love has to say

it cries at the mere thought of it coming back this way

I realized love cause more DAMAGE to me

so my soul won’t allow it to STAY