Laying in bed and the emptiness is overwhelming,

your pillows are colder than any northern winter,

 feeling of your phantom touch breaks my core to ash, 

attentively waiting for you to unlock the door,

can’t get my mind to stop reliving our not so distant past,

I hear your laughter echo through the halls,

 I can still feel you against my walls,

climbing higher,

opening me wider, 

as I scream go deeper,

you hold me tighter my diver my fighter,

but that doesn’t define us,

sex love and lust we fight cuss & fuck but never give up,

that was a must,

until it was all we had left nothing,

no fight or fuck to give no ring for me and You snatched back my rib,

no wedding no kid,

just teary eyes and emotions well hid,

no love no lust no rewind for us,

you gave up you don’t give a fuck,

what love got to do with us,

fuck love fuck you and fuck us,

I’ll ride this single wave until my last days,

fuck giving my all to someone when they don’t want it anyway,

fuck living a lie,

living in love is easy but living in pain will make you wanna die,

I’m tired,

my eyes are cried out my heart is done and my lips have a permanent pout,

on  a woman that showed nothing but love from the start,

only to have you break my heart,

I wanna punch the wall and burn your shit,

call your new girl and tell her you still hit,

watch her ass have a fit,

I’ll be somewhere laughing my ass off at you and that bitch,

don’t call text or DM me you moved on right,

I’ll move on but only at night,

I need someone to make my body less tight,

to fuck me right,

helping theirselves to your pussy, 

putting up their best fight,

knowing I’ll never love this nigga,

I hope knowing I’m fucking him kills you you quitter,

passing time until I decide that I no longer give a fuck enough to pretend not to care,

where the fuck you are,

and who your doing,

knowing I’m fucking someone I hope it makes your heart and soul polluted,

fuck up your senses making you think me and your brain colluded,

against you ,

fucking you for the last time,

you walked away with my heart,

but I took your mind.